so, it has been forever.

new news, my house offically has no computer in it. currently, i am in the library updating my beloved online blogs. this whole "no computer" thing happened just last night, when my mom finally gave up on fighting for my little brother's attention. before last night, he was fine with spending his entire free time on the computer, that & he was a real sassafrass when he was on there. so, my mom gave up & took it away. i could just about care less. but i hope it lasts, otherwise it was a waste of a point.

in other less technology news, the Lord has been really stretching my heart in ways i didn't think possible. mostly because i always looked over these ruts & saw them as just that, ruts. i didn't see them for what they were, times of growth & perserverence.

i have been less disciplined in the love study than i would like, but i am still doing it. i have learned a lot of things, such as how selfish i am & how i let my so-called "lack of knowledge" get in the way of plenty of things. God is growing me in His love in massive amounts.

as to life issues, i think i have decided to stick around at home until i can pay off all of my bills & then i will move into the Jesus People community, so i have no finances holding me back. & the bills i have to pay are fairly minimal, so that should be fine. but that is my "plan". we'll see how God will tweak it. all i know is i am excited to see how the Lord will grow me through the next couple of years.