life has been busy, mostly with work.
my heart has felt very distant recently, not like in a "i have been a jerk" type of way, but in a "my sense of feeling has left me" type of way.
it has been hard, because i have been earnestly wanting to have God come in & just jumpstart my heart back to it's passionate state. but so far, i have been left feeling this lack of passion & drive.

i want to yearn. i want to ache with God's heart. i want to see Him more. i want to love with a Christ-like love. i want the Holy Spirit to use me in my work place. i want the kids i spend time with to see Christ in me. i want Jesus. i need Him everyday.
i am so broken.